From our February newsletter...
Are you outsourcing God's love?
I was. I was trying to look for it in everybody and everything except myself. A man - yep, tried that. Puppies - yep, tried that too. Dancing, traveling, career - check, check, and check. I'm not going to lie, Kurlies. This December, I felt like the lyrics to Cranes in the Sky by Solange. Seriously. I listened to it on repeat and ugly cried my heart out.
But this one thing I didn't stop doing: seeking grace. Grace for myself and grace for others. After accepting I was worthy of this grace, my focus turned inward. Instead of worldly validation, I sought self-validation. This involved a couple of things. First, shutting down my ego, that awful heffa in my head, through meditation. And secondly, reading prayers over myself.
The prayer that's been the most helpful? That would be the "Love Is" scripture (1 Corinthians 13:4-7). But here's the game changer: I replaced the word love with my name. So it reads like, "Lana is patient. Lana is kind. She does not envy, she does not boast..." I read it and believe it every night before bed. And I also do the same with the "Virtuous Woman" scripture (Proverbs 31:10-31), just to remind myself that I am "worth far more than rubies."
Praying over myself in this way has built up a reserve of self-love. It keeps me humble, helps me make better decisions, and attracts the best blessings. Basically, it removes those cranes and reveals limitless sky. It helps me source love directly from God, who exists within all of us.
But it only works when I do it every. day.
Daily dates, if you will.
I know I'm just a young woman who sells you hair. And maybe that's all you want from me. I understand if that's the case. It's just - my devotional this week is about making room for others. And if there's anyone out there who needed to read this, I hope it carved out a sacred space in your heart. I hope it reminds you to breathe, do the work, and ask for divine help on these assignments.
Bring your love back to the shores of your own spirit - and never feel without again.
Your sister in beauty,
PS I hate that I even have to say this, but when talking about spirituality, I feel like I have to. Me/this brand/this business loves everybody as they are. You deserve the greatest love, and that only comes from within.
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